No matter whatever u run behind , if u want to achieve something , u will always have to first decide of something from which you have to run away from . So define your priorities first .
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Hope and actions are interconnected . Your actions justify your hope . Action defines this moment and hope follows it . So your last hope is something you should be acting upon now .
I don’t have to be smart , i just need to be happy
Three months ago i lost my smartness , on my college corridor , when my principal snatched my mobile ,while i was on a call with my friend. For a second , i became too emotional, in fact i felt like crying . All students stood stunned watching the drama happening between me and my principal . I told myself , i am not gonna panic , i am going to get back my mobile soon. I decided to go to his chamber with an apology letter after my classes were over . So , now i had to sit for three long hours , without my love. I still remember the day, Aug 22. The nifty was down by 379 points. A total market crash after two years . I had sold few stocks too , on the basis of short selling . I had even placed an order to buy on an assumption of a stock coming down to an expected price . But i had to wind up everything before 3.15 . If i failed to buy stocks which i sold when i had never owned them ,then i would have to pay a fine. As soon as i rushed into the class , i enquired if someone had a internet data in their mobile . Thankfully one of my friend had it . As soon as i got her mobile , i accessed my demat account and found out , my orders were executed . This gave me a bit of relief, i was not losing money anymore . But i found it really hard to sit without my mobile . Every now and then i put my hands inside the pockets to realize i didn’t have my mobile inside it . I kept on telling myself , not to panic as i will be able to convince my principal . But this question , ” what if i am not able to convince ” , kept on irritating me . Isn’t this the biggest problems in everyone life , an instance of “what if ” . The unwanted choice that life gives us . If everything goes as we wish , then there is no need for us to fear . But we all know , life doesn’t always go in a way we want them to go . So, we decide to stick on to something called as hope , which is the very best choice that is available . Even i did the same . But i couldn’t concentrate on my classes and all teachers constantly called my name , as i seemed to be very depressed . Finally i decided not to attend the final hour . I went to a smoke shop behind my college and lit few cigarettes out of tension . I then decided to write an apology letter , something in which i have a lot of experience as i usually do it . I wrote the final sentence as follows , ” and if i repeat the mistake , i shall be liable to any punishment in accord to the norms of this institution”. Well , how many times more , i will have to write that sentence , i wondered . As the final bell of college rang , i decided to pick my bag and go to his chamber.
I had to wait outside , for more than one hour . The peon who went in and out regularly , asked me to wait for some more time , as he was busy . I knew , he was lying . I was intentionally made to wait . I don’t mind too. If i get my mobile back , then i will be the happiest man for today . I finally went inside the chamber at around 7:15 in the evening . As soon as i went inside , i offered him my apology letter . And guess what happened next ? ….. He tore them without being read . What the hell? …He tore them?? A letter which i had written ? I didn’t feel bad , because he tore them , instead it was because , he didn’t even mind to read them . It was even okay if he hadn’t given back my mobile after reading them . Writer inside me , was really hurt . He tore a letter which was appreciated by almost all the guys who read it . To add upon that , he scolded me for more than half an hour and i didn’t even hear a word of what he told . My mind was still on the words which i had written so passionately . Finally , i didn’t get back my mobile anyway .So i was left with only two more choices now , buy a new one or try out my luck again with principal , but this time , taking my dad along with me.
Before sticking on to first , i thought of giving a try to second choice . I have had a lot of instances when i had to take my dad to college because of the mischievous things , i used to do . Comparatively this incident was not actually a big deal . My dad was never a kind of a person , who believed in teachers rather than their own kids . He always analyzed the situation carefully and belted the one , who actually deserves . When the mistake was on my side , i used to frankly tell him , get scoldings and he would apologize on behalf of me, after i promise him , i am never going to repeat them again. And there are even situations when teachers got belted from my dad , when they tried to exaggerate the stories . So , i told him to request my principal on behalf of him .As usual , after i kept a promise , i will not use my mobile in college corridors , and he agreed to come . I was quite sure that i will be getting back my mobile this time . For some reason i always have a belief that , my college affairs will get settled when my dad gets involved in it . But then , even this time , it was ” what if” situation, that had the upper hand . Nothing went right or as what i had thought to be right . So is it the only choice i am left out with me? . Well then , i had a big task of somehow arranging the money to buy a new one . There was no way , i was going to ask dad ,an another mobile . This is the third time , i am losing my mobile .
I started arranging money to buy a new one . But something really strange started happening . I started to love myself again . I didn’t have to worry about any calls from now on. I didn’t have to worry about the unimportant messages which i read just because i had nothing else to do . I didn’t have to keep myself awake till late night , doing a boring conversation . I did miss the absence of my mobile but moreover i was loving my own presence . Within ten days somehow i arranged money and decided to get back to my busy life , while something really unexpected happened . I heard the voice .
“Dude , what are you doing “, my own voice said .
This was the voice , that had guided me during my hard times . When the whole world had hated me, this voice within me always told me the value of hope, love and faith . It had thought me so many lessons in my life . It was because of this voice, why few people considered i was a good philosopher . This voice was everything for me , when i had lost everything . I was surprised to hear them back and moreover exited . The worlds best advisor had finally come to my rescue .So i decided to open up myself with this invisible psychiatrist . I needed help and i thought of answering all the questions frankly , hiding nothing within my heart.
“i seriously don’t know”, i replied
“then why are you even doing it ?”, it replied.
I don’t know how , but that single sentence from my voice , itself restored a lot of faith.
I remember the resolution that i had made myself , when i was buying my last mobile . According to it, i should have bought my mobile , to read ebooks , write blogs , read articles , to watch videos that were related to my academics. But slowly after i bought it , i realized i cannot hold ebooks for a long time , as it strained my eyes and i never wanted to walk around with my spectacles on my eyes. Gradually ebooks app , became similar to books , which i keep in my library . The ones which i never read but never sell , because as a writer , i consider selling books are like disrespecting them. Similarly , my ebooks were never deleted but i never used them too . And slowly i learned blogging was a good platform but only posting it there , i wont be able to reach lot of people . Because there are so many bloggers around the globe and so i decided to post short quotes whenever i got time, before writing paragraphs of blogs . And i did them occasionally , so even those apps were rarely used. I was not interested much in academics too as i had it 2 years back when i was in second year of engineering . So i gave up the idea of using my mobile for academics too. But my mobile was on all the time i was awake , doing things which i never wanted to do . In a while , i also thought about investing . I installed the news apps and started reading news related to stocks all day and night . I installed few social networking apps , because i thought it would help me relax when i go deep into stocks. I started thinking of a start up. So i read as many articles on how to start a business . But wait!!! what was actually happening ? How did a philosophical writer suddenly started thinking about setting up a business? . It must be because either of the two reasons . Maybe because i thought i should be a responsible person or it must be because i started fearing for this world . Or it might be even because i started fearing the world and hence was trying to become responsible. Whatever happened , but surely , i had changed and i didn’t like a bit of what i was doing .I forcefully tried to love what i did , but i never could . And i did not want the feeling of not being loved by this world .So , i always tried to be busy . World really had to know how responsible i am . But deep inside my heart , i wished the lord to guide me .
And he did it , by making my mobile disappear in an unusual way . And before i repeat , all over again , he asked me to think . I had all anxiety within me as i couldn’t deal with my stocks . I was running with a fear of being irresponsible. what will i even do after my engineering which will get over in an year , kept me worried all the time . But for past few days from the day i lost my mobile , i was actually happy . I could wake up at 6 without hesitation , as i wasn’t doing my boring conversation previous night, asking questions like ‘what are you doing?’ , ‘had dinner?’ , when it was a common sense thing that someone is texting when they have to reply me and they would have surely had their dinner because it is around 12 in the mid night . I don’t have to check for any messages , so i enjoy my bath by dancing and singing . I don’t have to check out my emails , so i enjoy my morning cigarette. I sit in the class and think of writing something in the last pages of my book , which i have been loving to do since i was in school. For the first two days , my friend whom i meet after the college , struggled to get in touch with me , as i had no mobile . But then , we actually got used to it . As soon as my college was over , we used to come to same spot where we always meet . And whenever either of them couldn’t come , we always found some other way to inform each other . My mom used to call me every evening when i had mobile , even though she always knew i was late to home . Probably because she feared , but when i didn’t have my mobile, people in my home were never worried of me, because they knew i usually come home late . We normally think , we get used to this world which is actually not true , its the world which gets used to us . We think we need to change because the world is changing , but the fact is we decide to change and from then entire world starts changing .
After my voice told me to enjoy the gift of solitude , i decided not to buy a mobile at least until i actually need it. I did not buy one ,for the next three months until my semester exams begun and i needed an handy electronic gadget to go through my study materials . But every day i lived without this so called smart mobile , i enjoyed it . I even started following my dreams . I went on to mountain all alone just to enjoy the breeze . I walked the paths when i didn’t know where it would lead to , just to explore new things . On my way to college , i started loving the tress and birds which i come across . And more than everything , i was walking all around with a feeling of something that i cannot describe with words . A feeling that one gets when we do what we actually want to do .A feeling that we get , when our soul doesn’t ask questions like , “why are you even doing this” .No matter how crazy i may seem to this world , but if i have to be happy with myself , i will have to completely accept with the perceptions of my feelings rather than my mind .
The reason why i believe in supreme power is because , the most unexpected things , that happened in my life , which i thought , were the worst moments , are the one’s , which thought me great lessons in future . If experiences go wrong in life , we got to try to take out wisdom out of it . Wisdom always has the ability to overtake our regret . If i look back and ask myself , what if i hadn’t had an experience of losing my mobile , then i guess i could have possibly not forgiven myself . I would have gone in search of someone’s else duty in this world , later regretting for not doing my own duty . I just request God , the final thing . There may come some time in my life , when i start fearing and lose faith in you, but do what it takes , to restore them back .
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